Jane Lynch felt ‘diseased’. She is very well known for her role as Sue Sylvester on the hit series Glee and she felt this way when she realized she was ‘gay’. The 40 Year Old Virgin actress lived her life with this secret as was growing up in Chicago, she confessed about her sexuality in her journal, throwing it out so one could find out. Speaking in new web series ‘It Got Better’ – which features LGBT celebrities talking abut accepting their sexuality – she said:
”It was almost like I had a disease I had been diagnosed. I had a journal and … I remember I wrote, ‘I am gay. No one can ever know this.’ And I went four blocks away and threw it out in somebody else’s garbage.
”It led to a life of secrecy that I had to unravel.”
She was terrified that she would be ”ostracised” if she revealed her sexuality to others. She said:
”For me, to be ostracised would have been the worst thing.
”To be thought of as different and not accepted was a fate worse than death.”
The fifty year old star she didn’t feel like other female classmates but didn’t realize she was a lesbian until the age of fourteen. She said:
”I identified more with boy things. I enjoyed dressing like a boy. The boys stopped wanting to play with me when I got to be about 10 and I had to fight to play baseball.”