Jennifer Lopez says her split from singer Marc Anthony was devastating. The popular dancer and singer, who sing On The Floor really wanted to pick up the pieces moving on from this hard divorce in 2011 for her children, their twins five year old Max and Enme. However she says that this separation was the toughest thing she has ever experienced. She told Britain’s GLAMOUR magazine:
”Back then the pain hurt so much, but I didn’t want what happened to finish me. I wanted it to help me grow for the better. I didn’t want to just survive it; I wanted to come out of it stronger than I was before.
”It took a lot a digging deep to do that. Right now I’d say it was the hardest thing I’ve ever been through, because of the kids. When you’re this little scrappy girl and things happen, you just cry yourself to sleep. But when you’re responsible for two other human beings and their lives and emotional wellbeing, that’s a biggie. You’re constantly wondering: ‘Am I doing the right thing here?’
Now forty four year old Lopez is happy in her relationship with choreographer twenty six year old Casper Smart. Also she and Anthony are still friends. Quizzed whether she still loves her ex, Jennifer said:
”I do. I love him as the father of my children and as a friend. That doesn’t mean that we were meant to be in marriage forever though.”
The ‘American Idol’ judge often lets pent-up emotions get the better of her and cries easily. Jennifer said:
”I cry often. I cry out of exhaustion and feeling overwhelmed. I’ll be holding it all together and then some little thing will trigger it – a commercial or a romantic moment in a movie – and the floodgates will open. It’s about being tired all the time.”